I want these words to pop out at you!

So these are my thought im not holding back, this time its for real
usually im mono tone but im serious and ironacally enough when im serious im not monotone

Right now im thinking about thing about my life

why people work the way they do

in case you wondering i have a song going through my head

so if you see some random words, thats what they are

i was going to hold off on blogging because i was waiting for 3 more people to comment, that i know have blogspot.

im on the verge, im on the verge,

of just jumping off the edge, been betrayed too many times

people are just people

and i guess i expect too much

im not writing this for your sympithy (sp)

but i am a man of feeling

whether that seem manly or not i frankly don't give an owls hoot

i dont want it, except maybe by one person but its not to get her to feel bad for me either

im writing it because this is a blog and after all aren't my thought suppose to be on here

the whole time.

I like this style of writing

i think society should accept it

it'd be a lot more fun to write in the middle of the page.

I cut myself shaving not too long ago and a blood clot came out

Im on the verge

of breaking out of my shell this is the last time i ever wanna be hurt.

Emotionally tortured, or in vain

I lost too many friends too many times, too many places too many ryhmes (hehe)

im not in a good mood and im gonna let you know it.

If i go hospitalized would you even know it? even care? or look around you to see if im there?

this time i've fallen far

and im afraid God doesn't want me back.

IM on the verge

of letting everyone know everything

more than just now

all the time, if you want ill let you know every single one of my insecurities

just ask, ironically this isnt something im just gonna put out there, im not permiscuous

have you ever wondered why i do what i do, why i pick on people even though i regret it afterward

its all a matter of my insecurities, its afterward i think about things, im too worried all the time whether people like me or not, whether im an annoyance or not

afterwards we sit down and think and notice we did screw up

My shame, my pity, my ignorance, my feelings, my selfstupidness is all here

all the time

but im sorry

there is nothing i can do about it

Im not God, i just wanna be a really strong follower of Christ.

Right now, the song welcome to my life feels like it applies, but it doesn't

ive lost too many groups of friends too many times

Just tell me what i do wrong, and not be like EVERYONE else and talk about me behind my back, and even if you don't i wanna know what you think about me...